worried

i learn so much from people in my life and watching their relationships.  my mom just called me crying because she got in a fight with her husband.  she rarely does it anymore but i know it is always there.  they fight constantly and i don’t need to hear about it to know it is [...]

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early morning ramblings

it is early but i got woken up by my phone, a call for jobs so i decided i better got online and check the postings.  i am glad that i did because i was able to pick one up for next week.  it has been a hard week for jobs because of testing that [...]

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weekend

i have been warring with my stomach for the last week.  i eat and then i just feel really sick…not every time but about once a day.  i was trying to decide if it was the food that i was eating or if it was just worry/nerves.  i think it is probably a little of [...]

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worry…attack

i swear saying i am getting better at not worrying is like shouting for worry to redouble its efforts.  i have been stressing about work or lack there of, money, and moving.  this morning i had a really bad headache just behind my eyes from just simply stressing out.  i called the new apartment complex [...]

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decision making

i taught for a half day today and it went pretty well.  then i was able to go out to lunch with a friend before going into my second job.  i cannot even say how different it is to pick up a job ahead of time versus picking it up that morning.  it is worlds [...]

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healthy non worrying vs. pretending the problem isn’t there

so i wonder which i am doing and i am leaning toward the second one.  things have been hard lately, probably harder than i have really let myself believe.  i work two jobs…i substitute teach and i work at a financial institution part time.  christmas break was two weeks and i was able to pick [...]

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patterns…and fear

i was reading another blog recently and cycles or patterns were mentioned.  what is it about patterns? i am sure we probably all have them, good or bad.  looking back on the posts of my blog, i can see them again and again.  i come to a point where i just start freaking out, stressing, [...]

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A waste of energy…

“Today is the tomorrow that we worried about yesterday…and all is well.” i worry…a lot.  sometimes it is about big things and sometimes not so big things.  but it really takes a lot of my energy.  i used to be tired all the time and i started taking vitamins which helped, i cut out naps [...]

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